Smiling from ear to ear, Our breathing has got too loud, show me the bedroom floor

hmmm this weekend . . .xD

so on friday i didnt get drunk, cause there was like no alcohol available in my house to steal which kinda sucked but it was a good night
we went to costas then liam and fraser played, they were very good, and they played Dammit! blink182 so i was pleased as, the rest of the night i watched people who werent me smoke weed and it was annoying, also it was actually beyond freezing and once jamie left it only got worse so both me and holly resorted to shoving our hands in mikeys pockets consequently making him look like quite the pimp i'd imagine
so it was reeeeally cold so me and holly got back to mine for 11, then we sat and had hot ribena and i had my electric blanket <3 then holly pissed about on my facebook with hilarious consequences, i was laughing so much i couldnt feel my stomach muscles anymore and i couldnt breathe (x twas good Then we had toffee cake for breakfast

So that day i literally forgot to eat, (i do this all the time at weekends) that saturday night i went to jamies friends ryans house and met people hes friends with but because i had gin and no food in my stomach i remember only a very small amount of the night
Apparently jamie practically had to carry me up the stairs, also i spent like 40 minutes or so properly sobbing in a room half/fully ?(who even remembers?) naked on my own in the dark calling my entire phonebook and making no sense. Then jamie came back and made me stop (: Also i spent a large proportion of the night repeating things i had previously said like : youre hair's so pretty, i love you, i dont want to gain weight and that girl is hot These are actual examples, yes, i am that retarded
Jamie most likely spiked my drink (x

so today i got home and ate and ate and drank tonnes cause im constantly thirsty
Also i saw two of hollys business assosiates layla and emma and seeing as i looked like a generally hungover slutty scummy drunk and i have to see them quite alot it might be awkward Also everytime i see them i look like this, this should probably tell me something but tbh i dont really care

But yeah in conclusion my weekend was amaaaazing (:

Also sam: MEESEYS GONNA GET CHOOOO

polish girl in america

Good news i've stopped being a bitch (:

i've also stopped my copius crying, for now.

ALSO : YUUUUUUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
I GOT TITP TICKETS XD WIN WIN WIN WIN WIN WIN WIN
Anyways i'm not camping, i was aiming to get all weekend tickets without the camping but i only got Saturday and Sunday. For some reason my mother bought too tickets, at first i was like wtf mum? but then i walked into the canteen and found out Iona hadn't managed to get a ticket so she took the second one making it work out extremely well (x

so tonight im going to that costas band night thing again but this time i'll probably drink after instead of before cause that worked out kinda wierdly
i dont like stealing alcohol from my house but sometimes it just ahs to be done my friend

i'm actually so glad it's the weekend cause today felt like it took a thousand hours however i did understand my maths work fror once so it wasnt too bad (:


roll on weekend, youd better be fucking good

pearly lash monster

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E8ryQPachB8
if this video reminded me any more of holly and kt, good drunken times and dancing like a retard id be dead (x, in a good way WIN
(if link doesnt work its Hotelside Riverroom remix) i have to update my ipod
so below i will list artists and i want so i remember(it will probsies be boring to read):
Regina Spektor
Above song
falloutboy
panic! at the disco
biffy clyro
blink182

hmm these are mostly old but i recently cant get them out of my head )x

Anyway yesterday i was a pissy hormonal bitch as i have been all weekend, today i improved quite a bit but ate my own weight in biscuits
Also how i mentioned people saying crap about me and me getting annoyed, i still dont know who that was, but im going to find out Then probably kill them
Also i have decided eveyone can leave me alone, its no one elses business when and where and if i choose to take my clothes off so yeah gth

in other news i spent £10 on taxis this weekend D: i do not have the money to fund this as a habit D:

right now im looking forward to my birthday, i plan to have a lovely drunken mess of a party and only invite people i like or at least dont hate, then i can punch others who show up (x

then i'll be 16 and do whatever i want

hmm

also everyone makes up stuff then i cant find out whats true and whats not and who said what
and im fucking over it
why are people such utter twats?

mephadrone is a peculiar read

to be honest alot of the time it annoys me that some people i know read this because i cant speak about certain things or people or say my true views which makes me resent the blog, its beyond retarded

right now im feeling ridiculously melancholy and have been pretty much all day, it sucks
i feel like crying, i couldnt stop crying on friday either, it was shit Im clearly pregnant and hollys the father
But seriously feelings and body STFU

anyway my weekend
on friday i went to liams, it wasnt very exciting but it was fun
On sat >>>> and now im crying again, im fucking pregnant
anyway on saturday i went in town with lucy, we boughts abi's birthday gift
We also spent like 20 minutes in the ridiculously freezing cold during which the whole time i was pining for jamies pockets and hands, and also holly's fur coat pockets and looking for the right street to find this cafe which lucy claims has the best carrot cake ever
Then it was closed D: it was a disaster so Lucy took me on a date to the pancake place and we had chips (x
i bought myself some nice bug earrings and an eyeliner so it was a win

That night people were meant to be staying at mine but in the end holly had a free house so we all went there
We had like no alcohol so me and holly resorted to drinking very little very quickly
Then i threw up quite alot
which was wierd as all i'd eaten all day was 4 chocolate biscuits and a fuel
so i got quite drunk and spent most of the night with jamie (:
the night ended very wierdly and kindof awkwardly before holly kicked us out
today i went to abi's for lunch and then went to the cinema to see 'valentines day' which wasnt as bad as it sounds, twas pretty good
this guy who was an absolute dick to me when i was drunk and took advantage was there with what i can only assume was his gf, i thought it was pretty ironic

in conclusion i had a pretty good weekend i think

read all my posts and i'll love you forever shitface

i just re-read my first blog post, it mentioned me having a valentines day pissup or 'fat losers valentines days piss up'I grinned for afew minutes after reading it when i realised i dint have to do that, or be sad on valentines day P.S. Sorry to people whos faces im rubbing this in . . . . but XD

my new thing for lent is to finish all my homework before 1 each night, me and jamie (jew) made a deal, i'll do this if he gives up modern warfare 2 (x But lent isnt on sundays so it shouldnt be too bad

Also i dint have pancakes on pancake day, someone should make me a stack-ful and turn up at my door with them (but in a non creepy way) (:

oh, did i blog about the creepy sex talk my mother had with me ? it was horrible and all because i shaved my legs when i was about to on tights :S sorry for having personal hygene mother, sorry

also in reference in my effort to gain weight, i just ate 2 bags of chips pretty much to myself, i have achieved the goal of weight gain now I can eat how i normally do now (:

im still loving regina spektor a ridiculous amount, also the clik clik- my dunks is constantly in my head Tbh i find it endlessly amusing

beeeeat eet eet eet

today i've had Lying is the most fun . . . -panic! at the disco and regina spektor stuck in my head, all day It was actually pretty good considering i usually get songs i cant stand stuck in my head (x

SIDENOTE- from now on to avoid confusion jamie williams will be refered to as 'jamie (j.e.w.)' because of his initials and jamie other one will probsies just be called jamie or jamie thomas, that is all

So saturday night was fun, alot of fun . . . from what i can remember lolzzz
First was Sam and Sophies thing which was good Sams costume was amusing as was sophies (: i didnt dress up because i lack personality and spare time to think of costumes so i wore a dress which was equally as good and more practical

Yeah so after their thing was a sort-of after party at the beach/castle green, thats when things start to get blurry, very blurry We had hidden our alcohol in bushes outside (so so classy i know) so after retrieving that we preceeded to drink a bit too much a bit too fast I saw erin a bit later that night though and she was so drunk it was a different league, twas hilarious
Tbh i dont remember much else, i was with jamie alot apparently which i rememberish and i got a taxi at one but i cant think of anything else
Oh yeah im pretty sure at liams i huddled myself into a ball on his porch and stayed like that for like 20 minutes?? but who knows? :S

On sunday(valentines) me, michael, darren and jamie (j.e.w.) went to hollys friends magazine launch thing as holly starred in the magazine. Darren was scum so it was consequensely quite hilarious, also holly dressed me up as a red mermaid (x or thats what i refer to reference it as

Also i've noticed i've lost alot of weight, it hit me on sunday when shorts that usually fit well/on the tight side were baggy on me, then i seriously looked in the mirror and was like hmmmmm *annoyed tone* and commenced to up my eating regime

Sunday night me holly erin and nicole went to nualas it was good but a bit of a fail as we all were really tired so went home ridiculously early
Today jamie (j.e.w.) came round to mine ridiculously early(noticing a theme here?) which was gooood, he wanted me to make him a breakfast, i declined, he also totally wanted to watch twilight on dvd with all the extras XD joking but his middle names edward and he lives on edward street or whatever so its obviously hes really secretly obsessed with it
then he went to the dentist and i watched skins and desperate housewifes and had a delicious bowl of mircowave pasta (x

also my mum said the dress i wore on saturday was 'a bit dominatrix for a 15 year old' wasn't it? i just lol'd obviously


it was a truly lovely 4 day weekend XD

euggghh

i'm up at 9, jamie you better be grateful

i like this song a huge amount, its goood Also it reminds me hugely of afew people i really like (: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rov3pV9PsRI
the link probably didnt work correctly so apologises in advance, it's regina spektor-laughing with god

So anyway, its 1pm on the saturday of my 4 day weekend (x
Thursday night was pretty good but fffffreezing, holly ate a selection of repulsive bizarre food substances which was a conversation topic and a half
Friday was good, town to buy hair dye We (me and holly obviously) discovered an amazing american candy shop inventively called AMERICANDY, its opposite mcdonalds in town and its amazing Holly got a jar of strawberry marshmallow fluff, which needless to say is her new life companion I got Nerds but theyve ran out already, through no fault of my own tbh
Holly also took me on a date to the pancake place and bought me chips, she got impatient i was texting Jamie (not jamie thomas, the other one) while on a date with her :L but she was a crap date anyway so .. . .
Yeah so friday night went to lewis', his mother was there but didnt mind people were smoking and drinking, She is god now (x
Yeah so had some red wine with holly, laughed alot, got annoyed with people, sent alot of drunken stupid texts, so was a general win (x
Woke up today stinking like smoke and ew in hollys bed, then glee-dont stop believing came on, it was bliss tbh
So now im sitting in bed, tasting a horrible alcohol smoke taste in my mouth, on the internet Tonight is Sam and Sophies birthday party thing, which shall be good fun and after shall be even better hopefully?? if its not sam will pay (x

so weekend is going spiffing so far (x
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meltdown

my parents think im ridiculous nowadays, or 'burning the candle at both ends' as they like to say it like a fag
i also have to 'get my priorities straight and stop drinking evrey weekend' because i'm 'only 15'
i was swift to remind them that i wasn't Lindsay Lohan despite what seems to be their popular opinion, so now i'm just avoiding them as much as possible
God bless the person who thought up the 'reject call' button on phones (:

My lack of sleep is what helped them cotton on to this 'prioritize' and 'stop drinking' crap. Today i fell asleep on the living room floor infront of my tea which was a new sleep deprived low.
This is unrelated but i really hate that now i can't use the phrase, 'it was a new low . . ' because i literally can't hit new lows tbh, everytime i use this phrase holyl is swift to say 'really caitlin? was it really?' and even if she doesnt i know it in my head that it totally isnt Mainly it lost all its meaning after darrens 16th . . . ew

In other news it's a 4day weekend XD, lets hope it's at least half as good as last weekend was
Seeing as its sophies and sams party and i have gin left from last weekend it damn well should be


in other other news everyone around me is either being strange awkward or glum and im fucking fed up of it, people said things, we know, we now all have to forget and move on before it pisses me off and upsets me further



roll on fucking weekend

holly you shant read this, weekend = win

so my recent post were all like, urghhh scholl, i better not have a shit weekend or i'll kill myself. Good news lads, i'm not killing myself
This weekend was pretty amazing, i was really skeptical on friday though
On friday it was some gig at the factory which was good i guess but they search and breathilise you on the way in and theres always a bunch of literal 2 year olds there
Anyway the bands were good - hour assault, Sorry, you're a wiener was played by As he Falls (credits to holly for the awesome play on words with the shikari song) (x
After that we all went to liams and i got vvvvery drunk even though i didnt bring any alcohol, it was a win and a half There was alot of punching too but i missed it
The next day i was lazy until liam woke up then me and jamie had to try and help him tidy the house, including the sick filled bath tub, that was awesome to say the least
Then i had to go home and eat as i hadnt since lunch the previous day D: and i had to tidy before heading to nualas to get ready to go to travz Tbh i thought travz was overly hyped and thought liams party was better. At travs ambulances were called and we left at like 11 I stayed at lewis' with a bunch of people, to summarise the kitchen is fucking freezing and boys play way too much cod
All in all, very very good weekend

oh yeah but holly wasnt there so that was a sucky bit and i kept on being a drunken idiot on the phone to her and others, in general i was just a total twat whenever on the phone this entire weekend XD

the endxxxxxxxxxxxx

holly im sorry ily etc

http://www.farmsteadcheesesandwines.com/wordpress/wp-content/photos/orig_leelanau_raclette.jpg

babybel factory
xxx

riveting

this is gonna be a short post as i have a ton of homework i havent started cause im an idiot

i got my clothes off the internet (x except i am only keeping 1 or 2 things, everything fits funny and it makes me feel sick. Poor quality website. So i literally have nothing to wear to the massive party on saturday and no time to think of outfits. Looks like thats my saturday planned - trying on everything i own ever x(


On other topics i HATE being unsure or confused about plans, seriously like so much
and my mother is bothering me
gawd i hate homework
so in conclusion today pretty much sucked, like kinda alot
roll on weekend, and if its not an improvement im killing myself by monday
im joking but yeah seriously


aw i hate decisions
i bet this was a fun post to read, im getting shitfaced this weekend to make up for todays suckiness

lets go (:

like my reference to riverside in the title?? i did
and tbh thats all that actually matters

anyway its wednesday, which means i have to write a whole essay for tomorrow aaaand
it's midweek (:, i really just want it to be the weekend now -i have worked soooo hard this week and when i say worked hard i mean i had alot of homework
Thats not to say i did it all but still, i think that constitutes a break . . . . or what i really mean is a huge amount of recklessness and drinking (x

i notice my blogs getting a theme here lolzz

other news? hmmm i still have no idea about subject choice or where i'm even going to be doing my highers D:
also hollys got very very very busy recently, i feel like i imagine the wife does when the husband blatantly obviously has a mistress, its peculiar but meh its kinda a novelty
Oh and Taylor momsens the new face of new look- apparently all the stuff is shit although i havent seen it yet
still, im disappointed in advance


also, just a general wandering here, doe anyone have an outtie??? facebook or comment me or something


thanks
byea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

no marshmallows for me

Sam- ym@s are not shit and ashton kutcher is soooooooooo hot
holly- youre better at fashion and textiles than me
katie- i spend every waking second thinking of you
lucy- hiya pal (:

So as you should know i like adore Taylor Momsen, her style is really cool and basically she just epitomises cool, so anyway she's in Gossipgirl. Apparently the one episode of Gossipgirl holly ever watched they had a Vitamin water party now i love vitamin water a hell of a lot but a party based on it?? that doesn't seem wild, reckless or full of regret D: we figured out the dundee equivalent would be a Kick and tescos own brand vodka party XD sounds much better to me lolzzz

Anyway saturday= big big big party, i cant wait but i have nothing to wear D;
this will be a dilemma, don't worry though i'll report back (:

also i got my report toady- pretty goo i'd say except maths
apparently i dont try, should draw raccoons on the exam paper and dont study enough To this i say fuck off (x

byea xxxx